I'm Only Happy When it Rains

So I'm a brunette again because I looked like the scarecrow from Wizard of Oz with my fried ass red hair. And I'm glad for it, I'm back to normal which is nice. Considering stability isn't my forte, I think I'm doing alright. Work has been pretty decent.

I'm really excited for next week. Next week is mine and my boyfriends one year anniversary (23rd), Christmas Eve (24th), Christmas (25th), the opening day at Santa Anita for the horse races (26th), and my 19th birthday (27th)!

Tomorrow I'm going to hang out with Destiny which will be fun (if it works out) because she's the most awesome girl in the whole world and I love her to death.

I'm finally charging my camera battery after like 5,000 years haha. I lost my charger so I have to bring it to work which blows but whatever works works I guess.

In other news, yesterday I got a Prada bag and a Chanel wallett which I don't get until Christmas but FUCK it I am so stoked. I could wait two months if I had to. Hypothetically, at least :

I'm running very low on cash this Christmas and I still need to buy Peter's Christmas present (Nintendo Wii) which is INCREDIBLY hard to find, as they've all fucking sold out (God damn my life).

I can't quite think of anything else and I need a cigarette so this is it. Sorry to disappoint.

Love.

Update

So I haven't been keeping my blog updated which blows from a motivational standpoint. In any case, things are going well. I've been having some car troubles but it's getting fixed right now so no worries.

I watched Naked Lunch for the first time yesterday and can I just say what the fuck? It's a really weird movie. If you liked Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, you'll like this. You can watch it here: http://www.hulu.com/watch/15520/naked-lunch

I stupidly decided I would bleach my hair blonde, thinking my hair was some all-powerful force and would for some reason NOT turn orange, which it did. After much ado and many "carrot top" jokes, I decided to go back to red and thank god because I was getting sick of not standing out like a sore thumb everywhere I went. Hoorah.


Yesterday and today I've been frantically searching for new music. Lately I've been listening to a lot of metal which is cool I suppose because I'm not stuck on this indie folk Neutral Milk Hotel bullshit kick anymore. I'm currently listening to the Kills, who I have to admit I'm sick of. Every song is basically just talking shit on things people hold on a pedestal (i.e. love, money, etc.).

IF ANYONE IS READING THIS, PLEASE MESSAGE ME ON MYSPACE www.myspace.com/hauntedgraffiti AND SEND ME SOME MUSIC YOU LIKE OR YOU THINK I WILL LIKE.

In other news, Christmas is coming and I am apparently getting Tiffany's and HOPEFULLY (fingers crossed) a turtle. If so, this will be the best Christmas ever. Whoever thought of getting presents on someone else's Birthday was a god damned genius.

It looks as if when our lease is up we MIGHT be moving to New York, which I am fucking ecstatic about. Ever since I was in like... 6th grade I think- I've wanted to move to New York. The general response I get to this statement is "Have you ever even been there?" YES. I HAVE. So you can take your sadist bullshit somewhere else because I'm not going to move there and hate it, I LOVE New York. It's the most beautiful place I have ever seen and since I went there three years ago all I've ever wanted was to go back and stay there.

"If I could find a real-life place that'd make me feel like Tiffany's, then - then I'd buy some furniture and give the cat a name!" -Holly Golightly

Elephant Gun

Update: I've come out of my bout of depression. I get my license Tuesday. Senior portraits through the next couple of months.

This blog will mostly be pictures. In the past two weeks I've been a lot of places and I'd like you to experience it the best way I know how to show you- through photography.

Alone

I think there's something wrong with me. I haven't been happy in a while.

Whenever I get in a car I hope someone loses control of the wheel or the road is slick and we crash. Not that I would want anything to happen to anyone I know, I just don't want to deal with anything anymore.

I hadn't cried in a long time until recently. I cry almost every day. About my past, my future, and my present.

I don't know whats going to happen to me. And I don't really care. I just want to feel something besides helplessness or depression.

All is Well in the World

So Obama is finally the President which I obviously couldn't be happier about. The only downside is that Californians are fucking retarded and voted in favor of Prop 8 and now homos can't get married and be miserable like the rest of us.

Trevor's friend from New York is visiting. His name is Dave and he's one of the coolest people I know already and he loves going and doing stuff with Pete and I. Doesn't matter what, we just love leaving the house.

Below is a picture of me on Halloween! I was showcasing Dia De Los Muertos

In other news, I'm getting a tattoo tonight :] I'll post pictures later today or tomorrow.

Love.

New

My mom brought my car to me yesterday and I've been driving it around. Drove in the first rain of the season- completely terrifying.

Continue to be talked down on and disrespected by my roommate.

Peter's at work which really sucks because that means I'm going to have no human contact until 12:00 tonight.

I'm listening to this song by Autolux called "Here Comes Everybody" and that seems to be making everything okay. That and my friend Barent and I are talking about things that don't involve stupid shit people usually want to talk to me about. I.e., where I got my flannel shirt or did my collar bone piercings hurt.

Anyway I'm going to clean my room and smoke. Then play Diddy Kong Racing until my thumbs fall off :]

Love.

Halloween.

My Halloween was a complete waste of time. I h8 my lyf <3


My roommate he has some loser over right now who he conspired with once to scare the living shit out of me- ended up ruining my night- I got sick, etc.

And now he has smoked my boyfriend out even though I wanted to invite family over today for lunch!

Basically whenever this kid comes over my roommate is more of an asshole than he already is because hes showing off for his xTUFFx friend.

Who comes over all drinks all our booze and smokes all Pete's weed.

I'm just so grateful everyone I know cares so much about me.

Also! Austin was a complete fucking tool to me last night because he was showing off for Barent!


Thank you everyone for making my life a living hell. I hate everything.