Elephant Gun

Update: I've come out of my bout of depression. I get my license Tuesday. Senior portraits through the next couple of months.

This blog will mostly be pictures. In the past two weeks I've been a lot of places and I'd like you to experience it the best way I know how to show you- through photography.

Alone

I think there's something wrong with me. I haven't been happy in a while.

Whenever I get in a car I hope someone loses control of the wheel or the road is slick and we crash. Not that I would want anything to happen to anyone I know, I just don't want to deal with anything anymore.

I hadn't cried in a long time until recently. I cry almost every day. About my past, my future, and my present.

I don't know whats going to happen to me. And I don't really care. I just want to feel something besides helplessness or depression.

All is Well in the World

So Obama is finally the President which I obviously couldn't be happier about. The only downside is that Californians are fucking retarded and voted in favor of Prop 8 and now homos can't get married and be miserable like the rest of us.

Trevor's friend from New York is visiting. His name is Dave and he's one of the coolest people I know already and he loves going and doing stuff with Pete and I. Doesn't matter what, we just love leaving the house.

Below is a picture of me on Halloween! I was showcasing Dia De Los Muertos

In other news, I'm getting a tattoo tonight :] I'll post pictures later today or tomorrow.

Love.

New

My mom brought my car to me yesterday and I've been driving it around. Drove in the first rain of the season- completely terrifying.

Continue to be talked down on and disrespected by my roommate.

Peter's at work which really sucks because that means I'm going to have no human contact until 12:00 tonight.

I'm listening to this song by Autolux called "Here Comes Everybody" and that seems to be making everything okay. That and my friend Barent and I are talking about things that don't involve stupid shit people usually want to talk to me about. I.e., where I got my flannel shirt or did my collar bone piercings hurt.

Anyway I'm going to clean my room and smoke. Then play Diddy Kong Racing until my thumbs fall off :]

Love.

Halloween.

My Halloween was a complete waste of time. I h8 my lyf <3


My roommate he has some loser over right now who he conspired with once to scare the living shit out of me- ended up ruining my night- I got sick, etc.

And now he has smoked my boyfriend out even though I wanted to invite family over today for lunch!

Basically whenever this kid comes over my roommate is more of an asshole than he already is because hes showing off for his xTUFFx friend.

Who comes over all drinks all our booze and smokes all Pete's weed.

I'm just so grateful everyone I know cares so much about me.

Also! Austin was a complete fucking tool to me last night because he was showing off for Barent!


Thank you everyone for making my life a living hell. I hate everything.