Alone

I think there's something wrong with me. I haven't been happy in a while.

Whenever I get in a car I hope someone loses control of the wheel or the road is slick and we crash. Not that I would want anything to happen to anyone I know, I just don't want to deal with anything anymore.

I hadn't cried in a long time until recently. I cry almost every day. About my past, my future, and my present.

I don't know whats going to happen to me. And I don't really care. I just want to feel something besides helplessness or depression.